AFTER ONE YEAR…

Ros, Taz and I are supposed to drop by UP to have our lunch today before finally ending our weekend get-together. We then realized that it is already the graduation day of batch 2005. We dropped by Arki to say hi’s and hello’s and to just take a peek of what’s happening.

One year ago, it was my batch in their place, finally released from the bondage of school. Or at least, that’s how I felt when I graduated. But now is a more difficult situation that I’ve gotten into… the state of not knowing how to release myself from the bondage of work.

Last Monday, I met with Sir Dytoc to return his original plans. The coffee meeting turned out to be another lecture session… lecture but really interesting and philosophical… something I haven’t really heard for quite some time. I learned that he met with Mia just a few days before setting a meeting with me. Out of curiosity, I asked why Mia resigned from work. He simply answered that Mia and I are different, and therefore we react differently given the same conditions. I understood that I chose to stay in my work. I told him that I’m not giving up yet. I want to give myself a chance to try to live normally and work efficiently at the same time. He told me that for the fact that I’m trying to be normal simply means that I’m admitting that I’m not. And from what he knew ever since I was a student, I’m not normal. I really don’t know if that’s a complement,… that I can endure situations that other people can’t normally take. He also lectured that my mindset will definitely affect how I work. In other words, a positive mind will help me lessen the burden of my job.

And so I tried to be as cheerful as possible. But the unexpected happened this week. I had been blamed for my inadequacies, which are very true. It’s true that I cannot do everything that was assigned to me. Again, I left a ton of work piled up on my desk this weekend. I was conditioned helplessly that my work cannot be done by one person. Although VJ already submitted a resume, she wasn’t called yet for an interview. I got the impression that Patt and I were assumed to be able to handle our assignments without needing an extra hand. And so I was thinking of taking a leave to re-charge and to think things over.

To keep my sanity, I always find a way to go out on weekends with my friends. This was our itinerary this weekend:
23 April, 1pm – I picked up Ros
330pm – We met up with Taz in Shang
about 530pm – We reached Intramuros and walked to
Orchidarium for dinner
Until about 11pm - we toured Intramuros, hang out in the
walls area over-looking the golf courses, went to church
ruins,… etc.
24 April, Until about 130am, we hang out in Starbucks Salcedo
Village branch and stayed in the park.
3am – We finally slept soundly at our official sleep-over
headquarters
Until about 1pm – We dropped by 2005 graduation
ceremonies held at the new arki building
We finally went home after lunch.

I missed my college days when life’s problems are unreal, where friends are always there, free for hang out sessions… Or maybe I’m just in this stage of uncertainty… I really don’t know.