IT'S ALMOST 9AM AND I'M STILL AT HOME

I learned from Patt that a number of people in the office have noticed that I've changed quite a bit since I came back from my vacation. Before I took my leave, I'm usually the last person to leave the office. Kulang nalang bigyan ako ng key, pero actually, once iniwan na sakin...hehe. But after, iba na. minsan pa nga I would peek at the bundee, since it's just a few meters away from my cubicle, and then I would cheerfully announce pa to my officemates na time to go home. B.I. ba? hehe.

Others would think that I'm dating someone. Everyday? Hello?! Yesterday morning, they were teasing me coz I left early the day before and I was wearing a smile the next day. Kala naman ng iba, it has something to do with salary, coz wala ng pang sweldo, so why work?

Bakit nga ba? Maybe because di lang ako sanay ng not-so-busy. I'm getting bored na. Kaya nga one morning, I just realized that I want to take the board exams so at least I'll be busy reviewing. And at the same time, a lot of things are bothering me. Siguro 20% lang dun yuung salary thing and the rest is "future". So di naman ako completely nagpapanggap when we discuss the difficulties of not getting paid on time. Of course I can relate to my officemates, but di lang talaga yun ang main concern ko. Life is more than that.

I was given a motivation to stay pa sa office coz I had been going to the site for the past three weeks and I'm learning a lot. Yun lang, the place is really really messy and yuck ng feeling after mag site. Kapal sobra ng dust that I get from there. Kitang kita from my site shoes. hehe.

It's almost 9am, and I'm still at Malabon. I'm stuck here. My brother fetched me last night coz brown out sa White Plains. Now I have to wait for someone to drive me back to White Plains. Nakakatamad sana punmasok but I have to do a presentation for Monday. Cute cute ng powerpoint ko. Feeling college ulit. :)

NATIONAL ANTHEM

Charol and I have a new national anthem, which I'm posting here. We put this mp3 in our phones although the file is relatively large for an mp3 (more than 4mb)and listen to this song everyday since we got this. Of course no one will be able to understand a Chinese song. Charol's singing this song confidently yesterday morning, but it doesn't mean that she can knows every phrase. It's a sign of that she's a true gracean... in other words, "kabisote". No wonder she surived Chinese classes in high school. I'm so proud of you girl!

GUANG LIANG TONG HUA LYRICS

忘了有多久 再没听到
你对我说你最爱的故事
我想了很久 我开始慌了
是不是我又做错了什么
你哭着对我说 童话里都是骗人的
我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂 从你说爱我以后
我的天空 星星都亮了
我愿变成童话里 你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局
你哭着对我说 童话里都是骗人的
我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂 从你说爱我以后
我的天空 星星都亮了
我愿变成童话里 你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局
我要变成童话里 你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局
我会变成童话里 你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局
一起写我们的结局

CROSSROADS

I thought things are just going to be back to normal once I get back from my vacation. It's turning out now that there is no such thing as normal anymore.

Work seems to be fine superficially. Major problems were resolved while I was on leave, and I find that really comforting. I now make more time after work. I talk to someone on-line or on the phone, I watch DVD's or do something just to really live the life after work. Here's a pic of Charol, Patt and me on a weekday night.



I enjoyed my time off-work and my hang-over after, but that gave me the opportunity to realize that I'm trapped in my own circumstances and I'm too helpless right now to do anything about it. I'm not motivated to work anymore since I can't even choose what I want to be and who I want to be with.

One thing I am grateful for is that I realized too that I want to live and explore possibilities. I just dunno how. All I know is my world is never the same again.

TRAVEL PICS

I have nothing much to tell except that this is my most memorable trip ever. Let the pictures speak for themselves.

I AM A TENDERHEART BEAR

	Tenderheart Bear You are thinker, organizer, peacekeeper, and leader all in one. You have a power to command attention and people listen to you. However, you are often so concerned about not hurting others' feelings that you don't tell them what they need to hear and this gets you both into trouble. But you always have loyal friends to help you out.
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