PANAGINIP

I had a dream. I was back to the enrollment period of the last semester of school. I was freaking out coz i got KAS2 when I'm supposed to get NAT SCI2. I panicked coz i won't be able to graduate on time if i don't get NAT SCI2 and have 2 KAS2 records.

Then I saw Meg forcing Peter to be back on duty for ARC. He was inisiting to Meg that he already graduated from ARC, but he can't seem to convince Meg to let him go. Inaway ko si Meg coz feeling ko Peter can't defend himself.

Then I'm back to my own concern of NAT SCI2, wondering if i can still get a class.

Good thing I woke up in just a short while to reallize it was only a dream. I'm glad i'm not a student anymore. Unfortunately, in less than a minute, i realized another dilemma. I was supposed to attend an out of the office meeting at 830am, but then i forgot to load in my car the material board necessary for the discussion. WAAAHHH!!! The office doesn't open until 9am.

So that's the real thing. But it's ok. I was able to resolve the issue. I knew i was gonna be late for the meeting. I told Jasmine who was with me... that if God can't make me early, maybe he can make everyone late. True enough, the meeting started really really late, and some didn't show up.

DON'T READ THIS IF YOU'RE FRUSTRATED

Friends, I’m getting burned out with my job again. Allow me to use my blog as an outlet for all my frustrations.

Here are reasons why I don’t feel like going to work:

1. I don’t wanna wear skirt everyday. Imagine me climbing up a chair to reach the marble or tile samples, or going through the tambak of marble and tiles outside the office with insects and all. I do that in skirt. And I have to carry all my preselected materials back and forth for approval. They’re kinda heavy you know.
2. I hate the canteen outside the office. Yeah, we were forced to spend lavishly for lunch to get a decent meal and to eat in peace, without the hearing the voice of Kris Aquino in Game k n b and “Wowowee” community singing as shown in TV in that lousy canteen.
3. I always do the dirty work. I spend so much time stamping RFA’s and RFI’s, which does not contribute in my learning experience. Suppliers and clients’ representatives contact me for appointments with my boss. Am I a secretary?!
4. I hate the beaurocratic system. Sometimes, I’m overwhelmed with pressure preparing the documents for release in time for the site meeting the following day, only to find out that our master encoder ignored that need of preparing the transmittal on time. So it’s really pointless.
5. Some people in our office are like government employees. Last Friday, one of our cadders wants to go home early. She said, “bakit sila, naka isang araw nang wala this week. Ako wala pa.” I’m so pissed off. I can’t even afford to take a leave to get my diploma, or to see a doctor for my back pains. I’m workload always piles up.
6. I used to say to my friends that admin work is basically everything except CAD. But now, I also some CAD work since for a time, our CAD people are busy. That’s fine with me, I can do their work when they are loaded. But why aren’t they flexible? When I’m busy and the CAD are not, they can’t even lift a finger to help the admin. It’s not that I hate the people personally. I hate the system.
7. I hate the way people steal my things. I already lost my scissors, stapler and 2 cutters. That latest incident, I was working on a big table, turned my back and it’s gone. I already had a feeling who’s the culprit. The Safeguard soap in the ladies toilet was suddenly lost right after the cutter. And there is only one lady moving around me at that time.

I dunno how I will be able to manage to go to work tomorrow. I’ll try to write on the positive side next time.

THE SWAMP

This is a product of the need to get off from work to unwind on a weeknight.
Special thanks to Charol and Aldrich

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LONGEST BLOG

This is probably a long blog, since I haven’t really updated it for quite some time.

LAST WEEK’S HELL WEEK

Yes, it was hell week last week for the whole office. Last week Tuesday, Lola Goy, the mother of Sir RP, passed away at the age of 86. It’s sad seeing my boss in tears for many days. He can’t help it. His dad was lost in war and she was the father and the mother to him. It’s also unusual for a lola who would remember me when we met only for the 3rd time. How I wish I had a lola like her, who goes out for coffee or movie with her grandchildren.

On that same day, a big big issue on the big project exploded. Imagine my boss, at the emergency department of the hospital, while his mom is not yet even brought to the mortuary, this big client called him up on the phone and wanted to have an emergency meeting. Although informed of the situation, he said his condolences and still insisted on a meeting that same morning. How cruel. But I’ll just keep the rest of the issues as confidential. Our office started Saturday work again because of that. Of course I have to excuse myself since I have classes on Saturdays.

I’M FAT FOR ONE DAY

It’s a weird Monday morning when I was about to get dressed. I looked at the mirror and realized that my face is bloated. Dunno why. Then I looked at my arms,… they’re kinda fatter than usual too. I thought it’s just an illusion.

I went to the office and saw Charline, a former officemate hired back to our office. She told me, “Tumaba ka!”. Which I believe is true. She hasn’t seen me after I came back from my two-week leave, when I really fattened myself. I had in mind that I haven’t really lost those fats I gained at that time. At another time within the day, my officemate Ryan suddenly pinched my arm. I reacted by giving my trademark sungit reply, “Ano ba, sakit nun ah!”. Then he told me,… “Nanggigil ako… para kasing ang haba ng tulog mo nung weekend eh.” Okay, fine. Tumaba ako.

Just yesterday, I saw myself in the mirror… and I seem to be back to normal. Weird.

IN SEARCH FOR MATERIALS

Jasmine and I were assigned to do the material board of a Paseo project. We’re in urgent need of some kinda Mediterranean-looking colorful tiles for the exterior, something similar to Machuca tiles. So we were sent to MC Home depot in Ortigas. In addition to that, we have to search for abaca carpets and tropical-looking lamps for Ayala Greenfield project. So we’ve made our way and went all over the shops. We regretted that we were in our skirts and office shoes instead of our jologs UP get up.

The next day, I was sent alone to MC Home depot in Fort Bonifacio. I dropped by the house and changed to jeans and sneakers before doing my mission. But still, it was really exhausting and frustrating. I cannot find everything I need! Until now, I’m still having problems with those lamps.

When I shop for my personal stuff, I have that tendency not to buy anything for several weeks of going to different malls because I can’t find the right stuff. I feel the same way with building materials.

But at least, because of those trips, I was able to satisfy my craving for dirty ice cream… an on going longing for since I started working. Jasmine and I found an ice cream cart on the way back to the office, so we stopped for a break.

HYPER

It’s another weird thing this week. I felt so hyper for three days… Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday, as if I had a caffeine overload, when I’m not really taking anything unusual. Sooo active that my boss called me “power”. I felt hyper inside, but physically I’m about to collapse. Well, I’m back to normal as of yesterday… bad trip,… it was hell yesterday and I really need that kind of an adrenaline rush.